One Giant Waste of Time?

I've been thinking.

Every time I post a new video I get about 30-40 average views, and maybe a few comments.

Every time I post poetry, I get 1-5 views and usually 1 comment.

Every time I post a story, I get 30-35 average views per chapter, and maybe a message or two from readers.

Every time I post a blog, I get no comments, and I don't even know if anyone reads them. So my point is this:

Am I just wasting my time?

Probably. I make content for the internet to the best of my ability, and still get almost nothing back. I've made a few very good friends, but I always end up letting them down or we just don't talk after a while.

While I enjoy being on the internet, and play some games, I really don't feel like anything I do will make it worthwhile. And that's a downright shame. I'm not complaining about not getting views (not directly), rather how crap I am at making things.

I've always put it down to having a bad computer, but I'm beginning to have my doubts. Hell, I've always had doubts. Pretty strong ones. But I've just kept my head down, ignored them, and carried on relentless.

But sometimes, like now, I just can't help but think there's no point to anything that I'm doing. Maybe I'm the only one who enjoys my content. And it makes me miserable.

I don't have much talent in anything but writing story's and poems, and the computer. But all that has stuff to do with the internet. And seeing as I'm no doing very well, it seems as if I have no purpose in life.

Yes, I am aware that sounds very emo. No, I'm not killing myself or anything crazy like that.

I just wish I could feel noticed.